A Redlight / Greenlight Life







so i need to format this laptop, and i dont have any recovery disks or any copy of windows to put back on it. See, i broke it somehow. I have no idea how, but basically, now, it freezes 2/3 times i try to start it up, and then if i do finally get it into windows, it takes about 5 mins for it to freeze up or crash. So im on a time limit with this entry.

I had an interview at that Call center today, and while i passed their data entry test with flying colors, they didnt hire me. Its apparently against their company policy to hire anyone who hasnt had a job for 365 consecutive days. So fuck them.

I went straight from there to Books A Million to see if they had gotten back my Background check yet. The guy who was there wasnt the manager i talked to before, but he went and checked and said that they had gotten it back, and that i would probably get a call tonight or tomorrow telling me when my interview would be. So im waiting.

I really need to go see lilly. Ive been trying to find time and money for a little while now, and its been too fucking long, About two weeks, since the last time i saw her. I swear to god, as soon as i know if i have or dont have this job, im gonna go see her. (unless they say i start like, instantly, which i so doubt they will do)

(at this point my computer crashed, and i only kept what ive already written so far because of the draft autosave that Livejournal has.)

Jason is basically my best friend, and hes been really depressed lately. It sucks, because i dont really know what to do. my advice is horrible. He works so much, pays rent on the apartment, and buys all the food. I really dont do enough for him. I feel like a bad friend sometimes, because i really want to be able to do more for him than i do, but i dont really do much at all. I wish i could just help more. Idk. I wish i just knew what to say. Maybe when i get a job ill feel better about not contributing more, but that wont cheer him up. It wont make him happier. And thats what i really wish i could do.

Im trying to back up everything thats on this computer so i can get lilly's brother brandon to format and reinstall windows. Im hoping he has windows disks, or a cracked copy, because i dont. Jason has no idea where the disks for the laptop are, and olivia said she looked in her things but that they were nowhere to be found. So ive got no idea what to do. It really sucks too because i just used my wow card to reactivate my account for the next 2 months, and i cant even play. So i wasted the card. Fuck.

Today i also paid my cellphone bill and got oil put in my bone dry engine and transmission. Im hoping that the 60$ i have left is enough to last me until i can give blood again. Im hoping to go see lilly tomorrow. I wont know if i can until i hear back from BAM.

I really hope i can get this computer fixed.
I really hope i get this job.
I really hope i dont run out of money.
I really hope i jason feels better soon.
I really hope i get to see lilly soon.

(second crash and restore)

i also hope i dont throw this laptop at the wall or something, since its not mine.
I think im giving up. Ive written enough.