David Bass (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} kadeity) wrote,@ 2009-06-11 22:48:00 |
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You cannot teach a crab to walk straight.
Have i ever mentioned how much i want a hermit crab? I think im just fascinated by the idea of outgrowing a home; because to me it somehow resonates, and becomes about outgrowing situations, about growth in general, about the difference between the people youve been and the person you are. Ive lived in alot of houses. Ive been in alot of situations. Im maybe a third of the way through my life, and i already feel like an old hat. Its like, nowhere i am, and nowhere i go, is ever really home. Its home for now. Im not sure ive ever known what a home feels like, because when people talk about how they feel, it seems so alien. I dont know. Anyway, i want a hermit crab.
I guess i should give a proper update. Lets see. I borrowed some money and applied for unemployment. I feel bad about it, but i dont feel like i really had much of a choice. Most likely, i wont get the unemployment, but the loan covered my phone(60$), gas for a while(20$), and my overdraft fee(35$). I also got a haircut(12$) because i was tired of walking into places to apply for a job while looking like the wolfman. Ive still got that ticket(245$) to deal with, but some of that should be covered by whats left of the loan... and i don't know what else. Im shy quite a bit, and i have about a Month.
Im considering starting to donate plasma, twice a week, until i get a job. It would hurt alot for about an hour and a half, and net me about 15-25$ a time, so its all about how worth it it is after i try it once.
I watched The Hangover and thought it was pretty neat, i guess. I also put Dune & Children of Dune on my DS, and im currently converting Dragonball:Evolution & Valkyrie to the format my ds reads so i can watch them with Lilly this weekend.
I plan to pick her up from work tomorrow and stay with her until Sunday Morning, when ima drive back here to play dnd. Its getting harder and harder to not just be around her all the time, but im terrified i cant take care of myself well enough to live with her. Basically, im not sure she can depend on me because im not sure if I can depend on me. I just want to have some money saved before i move, you know?
Im frustrated, really. I have no idea how im going to accomplish the things i need to accomplish without a job, and seriously, NO ONE IS FUCKING HIRING. Im really frustrated, idk. Its just hard to find a job is all.
If i knew more people here, if i had any fucking friends, maybe this wouldnt be so hard.
Have i ever mentioned how much i want a hermit crab? I think im just fascinated by the idea of outgrowing a home; because to me it somehow resonates, and becomes about outgrowing situations, about growth in general, about the difference between the people youve been and the person you are. Ive lived in alot of houses. Ive been in alot of situations. Im maybe a third of the way through my life, and i already feel like an old hat. Its like, nowhere i am, and nowhere i go, is ever really home. Its home for now. Im not sure ive ever known what a home feels like, because when people talk about how they feel, it seems so alien. I dont know. Anyway, i want a hermit crab.
I guess i should give a proper update. Lets see. I borrowed some money and applied for unemployment. I feel bad about it, but i dont feel like i really had much of a choice. Most likely, i wont get the unemployment, but the loan covered my phone(60$), gas for a while(20$), and my overdraft fee(35$). I also got a haircut(12$) because i was tired of walking into places to apply for a job while looking like the wolfman. Ive still got that ticket(245$) to deal with, but some of that should be covered by whats left of the loan... and i don't know what else. Im shy quite a bit, and i have about a Month.
Im considering starting to donate plasma, twice a week, until i get a job. It would hurt alot for about an hour and a half, and net me about 15-25$ a time, so its all about how worth it it is after i try it once.
I watched The Hangover and thought it was pretty neat, i guess. I also put Dune & Children of Dune on my DS, and im currently converting Dragonball:Evolution & Valkyrie to the format my ds reads so i can watch them with Lilly this weekend.
I plan to pick her up from work tomorrow and stay with her until Sunday Morning, when ima drive back here to play dnd. Its getting harder and harder to not just be around her all the time, but im terrified i cant take care of myself well enough to live with her. Basically, im not sure she can depend on me because im not sure if I can depend on me. I just want to have some money saved before i move, you know?
Im frustrated, really. I have no idea how im going to accomplish the things i need to accomplish without a job, and seriously, NO ONE IS FUCKING HIRING. Im really frustrated, idk. Its just hard to find a job is all.
If i knew more people here, if i had any fucking friends, maybe this wouldnt be so hard.
